Should I?

I've learnt yet another lesson yesterday...The incident doesn't really surprised me, but I guess the fact that it actually happened and gives me this thought proof that I somehow have put some hope and trust in something or perhaps someone that I know by now I shouldn't and this annoys me... I learn that these values co-relate with each other, Hope, Trust and Respect... I understand that you can't put on hope without putting the trust in it and there's no trust without hope as well and you won't gain respect without trust too...so it seems like the incident happened when I actually put these values in it which leads to that tiny glimpse of hope to nurture the respect that I once have and put my trust back to where it once belong... But it turns out, it's true..not everyone deserved them...yeah you can say I'm exaggerating my reaction right now, considering it only happened once...then my question is why does it only happens once, why now? It has been more than 5 years, if I was just born then, I can now talk and run and I might even start to be taught about these values in my kindergarten...I'll be honest, there are times that I missed the moments we once enjoyed and cherished each others presence (at least to me I did), after all these things happened, I did took more than a year to brace myself and try to digest what really happen and where does it goes wrong...there's even time where I start to question my own thoughts, maybe just maybe You are being the childish adult here, maybe if you let loose and let go like they requested for before, things won't go this far...maybe if you be like some of your friend, whatever your parents did or went through doesn't involved you, You might still have some hands to hold on too (aside from MY family which I won't let go of those hands)...I've even lie to myself saying that what they did doesn't bother me, just close my eyes and focus to improve my own life...but truth be told, yeah there are times I'm sad, jealous, furious, mad at the updates I've seen or heard...there are also times where I picture myself being part of their moments IF these things didn't happen...in fact, after what happened yesterday, I realised if it was gonna be that easy, it shouldn't take more than 5 years...If it was that simple, you won't have the hesitation and questions running in your head...I'm the stupid one for having the slight hope that I may gain back what I had lost...cause it turns out it was never mine from the start...there's a quote I heard in a drama I watched recently, "The only thing that can't be replaced in this world is yourself. Even that person from your past can be eventually replaced" I wasn't sure how does it relates to me back then, but hearing it again now I think I understand it well...so let's put our values at the right place and time and find a better replacement for better future..<3

Another born day

Turning 27, thanks to my beloved parents for bringing me into this world, filled my life with loves and comforts, consistent and continuous efforts in ensuring I grow up healthily, happily and gratefully. Thanks for all the exposures provided, life lessons shared and memorable moments experienced that build me to be who I am today. Of course, this gratitude are extended to my brothers and sisters too, and not to forget the little one, Lily! Also, the people I met throughout my life, who may directly or indirectly affect the way I look at things, think of ways to go about my life, giving me ideas to improve my lifestyle and have a bigger dream or goal to keep me progress positively in life.

Stepping into my next journey as mentioned in my previous post with a (hopefully) more matured mindset and stronger willpower! Not sure of what to expect that will come my way but hopefully, I get to counter them heads on as I've been doing in the past years - obviously with a better approach and clearer mind. There's still a lot to learn, and it's never too late to upgrade oneself to a higher level. Let's go on our own pace to be a better version of ourselves in the future!!

Jumping to another tree, venturing like a monkey

I found out recently that I didn't post anything last year, not even my usual end of year or happy new year post..like for real FOR REAL!?? Shoot.. seriously there's a ton of things going on in the past times that makes me decide to take a moment to put everything at halt... Life has been an adventure and as I mentioned in my past posts, I'm trying to create a path that I can proudly look back and say "you made it with no regret!" But truth be told, there are some questionable decision made, but did I regret it now...nahhh not really, as time went by another lesson learnt is that, life's too short for regrets anyway and failure is the best teacher.

This year, again I didn't get to write a happy new year post BUT!! I'm updating now for another reason.

Earlier this year, as I'm busy hustling with another engagement that I caught myself into (ps. I'm out of the previous cage to be in a new "greener" cage) I'm also busy fulfilling my dream. So, let's backtrack a bit to give some context bout this dream of mine. So a few years back, something caught my eyes as I was driving at the highway, it is small but gives out an aura from far away that makes me turned my head twice to capture it sight. Ever since then, I've been eyeing for it and makes it a not-so-short term goal of mine to own one. My initial goal is to buy it as a self reward once I'm able to escape from my job with the expectation that I'm able to land a new job and get convincing pay that will be able to support my fantasy soon. I've been actively searching for a new role/job but sadly I keep receiving bad news. Sometimes in earlier this year, I heard that I may face the possibility of not obtaining that dream of mine as they are going to discontinue it. This makes me feel more rush and desperate to own it but the push factor really not due to the time pressure, but thanks to those devilish whispers from my fellow team members, who consistently feeding me with "supports" and "prayers"..after days of convincing and discussion had with none other than my financial planning role model @ my Dad! I ended up buying that dream of mine before I leave my firm. So officially on 12 March 2025 - You may call me the owner of Jimmy the Jimny <3.

Hi Jimmy

Thanks En Sukry for making things waayyy to easy for me

Back view <3

Front View

Loving my new boyfie

Partner in crime, one who witness D'Momento

Bought this in Thai hihihi..turning ma dream into a reality

Looking stunning no matter what size

Mini gathering of the Suzuki

Remember this? The car (Dad's) that I thrash in the Parit!

Bro's

I don't know how to describe the feeling had back then, when I went to test drive it, I simply fell in love with it as soon as I took hold of the steering wheel. The fact that I booked it on the same day I test drive it for the first time still feels unreal to me. Was that considered as impulsive thoughts hahaha..worry not, Kevin is not left behind, he is safely passed to my bro to assist him with his daily needs. So yeah~

Sorry Kev but Kinetic Yellow is the new Orange now..

Moving on the next topic which is more relatable to the title of this post. GUYS Finally GUYS!! I'm moving on from this firm..I'm leaving for good..But as the title mentioned I'm just jumping to another tree, still within the same industry..but this time it's a bit different as I'm entering with hope that I can learn new things while searching for my pace back. I've did what I can while I can. Although I may not leave the team on the right time but I hope everything will end on a good note. There's a lot of relationship made and paths I've encounters throughout the 5 years in the firm. There's a lot of emotion to digest to describe the adventure had. I enjoyed most of it actually but there are things that can always be improved and made better. People aren't something we can control or demand for changes to happen overnight. And knowledge isn't something we can install or download immediately. But the time spent there is a lesson and experience for a lifetime. Apologies for my shortfalls and thank you for the memories and lessons learnt. I hope the resignation from the firm doesn't equate to the end of friendship gain. Thanks again to my fellow team members, bosses and assistances that were provided by everyone across all departments. 

I'll be starting my new job next week 4th Aug 25. Hope everything went well.. I'm not concern on the work stress that much as I'm fully aware being in the same industry, how big of a difference do I get but I do wish it can give me more opportunity to find myself back and produce a better version of me.

Lastly, I'm just sharing the fact that I'm able to write this post due to...ehem2...my new tablet..I just bought myself a new tablet - Xiaomi Pad 7 - don't ask me why Xiaomi bla3...my money my problem kay~ so far it is still fresh from the oven so I'm still satisfied with it, let see how long it will last hehehe hope it can be my next buddy and allow me to update you more often.(Sorry Huawei, you left me on bluescreen T-T). That's all, I'll be sharing more once I stabilise my life again hahahah cause gurl this girl just came back from war and still in recovering phase HAHAHA so till then..Adios~~!! (Vid from En Sukry on the day my baby was delivered hehe)