wow...that is a long week~

I can't put down this book titled "Arfa's Adventure"... every pages of the book give me new view of life... this week has been superrr long for me...I don't know even know what actually happen...but one thing I'm sure of, I am so damn tired hahaha... so major events that happened during the week can be split into good and bad...so let's start with bad first... so last Thursday as I mentioned, I had to go to the office...but unlike last week..this week I went a bit late, and compared to last week the traffic is a bit heavy...so to get straight to the point...I had a small accident...which didn't affect much on me but the other party's car does scratch at the front bumper area...and due to my car being sturdy than I thought it will be... the other party wanted me to pay for the bill... after discussing with Abah, we decided to just lodge the police report since at the end of the day I may need to pay something...so when I reach office, everyone kinda worried about me but once they know that I'm fine, they seriously get straight to work...so that morning we did have a small meeting...but due to the accident instead of focusing on my work...I had to deal with the other party to make the police report...so 1 hour or so before lunch break I excuse myself to go to the police station...and yeah the annoying thing is throughout the day...there are always something that happen on the road that affect the way I drive...let's just say that day I feel like I'm taking JPJ test again... although at the end police conclude that I'm at fault but let us take that as another life lesson...So yeah~mark 3 September 2020 is the day Arfareena received her first fine.. now let's move on to the good thing...honestly, I don't know whether this can be considered as good news or not...but to be a positive person, I'll take it as a good news for now...last Wednesday, Wan Ling my A2, said that she has something to tell me...so we had a call..and during the call she said that she mentioned my name to our manager, Casandra as a suggestion for recurring staff...so recurring staff meaning that I will be selected to be in Ambank engagement again after this...I had a talk with my counsellor way before I joined this engagement...and one of the thing that she told me was, to be recurred in one of the big client in EY shows how good you are in your work...cause these big clients, they can be picky about who their auditor are...and we have a reputation to hold on too...so unless you did an excellent job you might not be selected as a recurring staff... so here is where I don't understand whether it is a good news or not...cause first of all when she offered me that, I haven't properly started doing anything at all apart from, yeah like I mentioned above, calling client and doing the same thing again and again...I did ask her, are you sure that I am able to perform my work well?... are you sure in picking me as the recurring staff is a good thing? she said everything can be teach and learn...so if I'm willing than she will inform our manager about it...she also mentioned that not everyone actually willing to stay...to be real honest...it is tough, there are a lot of things I don't actually understand how it works...but at the same time I can't deny the fact that having this opportunity can help boost my reputation and at the same time teach me a lot about auditing... maybe doing something I've done before will also helps in improving my confidence level and be more resolute in making a decision in the future... I cried actually that night...cause I don't know whether this is a blessing or a challenge...but what makes me agree to the offer is because, opportunity like this didn't come to you often...and I keep saying this, everything that happened...every path that is set in front of me has their own reason, has their own objectives and their own ending...so let's hope that I can continue giving my best to the team...that's all hahaha...I need to turn my laptop on again tonight to complete a web learning...so for now, I want to rest hahahahah...chau~