chilly night

 I'm trying a new spot to clear my mind... I think staying in bed, staring at my TV can't help to clear my mind that well anymore... so today I decided to open the balcony door and just stretch my "long" legs at the balcony while breathing in the "fresh" air, at the same time admiring the "view"... yeah so 1 week has passed since my 2nd engagement started... thank God I didn't go through the same breakdown phase, but I still feel weak every morning... I still wake up rushing to the toilet cause I felt nauseous and etc... but I still can cope with everything that happened.. well at least for now... maybe because everyone has been helpful to me...so it does reduce the burden to settle everything on my own.. I remember on the very first day of the engagement, I communicate with an A2 who is directly above me... apparently, he is on break but without knowing me before or even chat with me prior to this engagement... he sent something that makes me cry hahahha... it sounded something like this," take it easy, don't be too stress trying to figure out everything on your own"... that seriously help me a lot... especially after all the seniors mentioning how being engaged with one of the biggest client will make you lose your sanity real quick...cause everything is super strict and rigid... and the client themselves can be super nasty to deal with...the pressure to face the due date is not a joke... well to be honest, looking at the time schedule given, it is not a joke at all... but yeah as I said, so far everyone has been kind enough to help the slow me... so hopefully we can keep this pace for a long time... well at least enough to make sure I can deliver my work without delaying others works... currently, my work involve dealing with client, conduct an interview, call for sample selection... clarifying my understanding on their processes... making sure whether any changes can lead to any new impact to their control or not... and ALHAMDULLILAH... so far all the clients I have to deal with, well aren't friendly, but surely not nasty... maybe they sort of know that I am young and new...so they treat me like a sister/daughter instead..I'm not sure whether it is a good thing or not cause, yeah obviously I need to keep being professional...but I don't know if my professionalism is clearly shown or not... but one thing I learnt from my dad, just be nice to everyone especially your client, cause you never know when this connection will come in handy... ya ya it is like the philosophy friend with benefit... but that's what life is all about right... anyway, starting next week, every Thursday I have to go to the office...hopefully everything will go on smoothly, there is still a lot to learn... hope being able to meet my team next week can help me to at least feel like I belong somewhere... enough with this boring topic... hmmm since I don't know what else to share... I'm ending this awkward and meaningless post here haha... so again goodluck Arfareena, hope you have a happy and cheerful life... remember all hard work will be paid off... believe in His planning, Insyallah success is waiting for you.. just be patient... Hwaiting!!