CongatulationZ~!

 As planned and promised, actually nak buat post ni last week...but last week memang cam padat tak tau buat apa ahahaha so ina decided to dedicate a special post to my roommate, housemate, friend and sister that I just met not too long ago through ACCA...why you asked? cause this girl is no longer available in the market boys!! she's married with the love of her life hahaha...well thanks for sharing your stories with me.. getting to know you slowly each days through each stories and experiences shared mean a lot to me... so marked 14 November 2020 she is somebody's wife... alhamdulillah hopefully with the new beautiful life you'll be building with your partner can help to shelter you from all the negativity that has been coming in and out of your life all this time...can help to at least sustain your pretty smile and warm your large kind heart in days to come... kinda sad realising that tomorrow I could have seen you and wish you face to face but thanks to this PKP -_- ...tapi takpa...nanti2 kalau ada masa since Ain pun duduk tak jauh sangat dah hehe... kita jumpa for a quick lunch macam tu pun ok kan? hekhok... anyway, macam apa yang kita selalu gebangkan..this is just another stage in your life...I'll be praying that your happiness won't fade out, although I never meet your partner or get to know him in a way or so... but I can assure you, a short whatsapp complaint received is enough for me to be a cyber bully and hunt him down hahahaha.. just kidding (not really hahahah) ok not gonna make this into such a long post haha..we'll end this post with pictures shared from this happy couple of course daa~ Again CONGRAT SIS, happy for you ^_^

ni ja sneak peak dia share sehari sebelum ahahaha

Selamat~ Pengantin baru~

comel ja lahai posing hahaha

waduh2...single girl here can't relate yet T_T

caption wajib as penutup TILL JANNAH GUYS~!

PKP

 yup we are back to being quarantine, away from society...well maybe not we, more to ME and only me...huhu so officially this weekend mark the 4th weeks I'm totally isolating myself from everyone hahaha...since Alang balik rasanya keluaq pi kerja sehari (Thursday 8 October) then that's it...hahha luckily waktu Alang mai jadi keluaq pi beli barang dapuq..well tak la beli banyak sangat tapi alhamdulillah ada la saki baki untuk bertahan lagi a few weeks...sebab my area is in the red zone area memang tak la nak keluaq rumah buat masa sekarang kan..benefit dia kira sebulan la tak keluaq duit sangat hahaha...bayaq bil ja la..and so this week also mark the last week I'm in AmBank engagement yehee...honestly entah la happy or tak..cause I feel like I do kinda enjoy a bit during the engagement...I mean I like the balance between stressful time and fun time we had throughout the engagement...not to mention getting to know my fellow teammates was a great experience...in fact I'm really glad being in core hahaha..maybe because it seems like my workload wasn't as much as others.. but apart from it I like the fact that I have seniors that I can rely on whenever needed...thank you for the experience and hopefully more awesome adventure can be recorded in my small journey going forward...so let's stop talking about work hahahaha...so what I did for the past days apart from work..hmmm let's see..NOTHING hahahaha...I'm stuck at home..watching dramas, oh since dah tak keluaq rumah, basuh baju,kemas rumah, masak...macam activity sama ja hari2 ahahahaha...seriously nothing much and nothing fun really happen..nak kata had a full rest during weekend pun tak sangat...entah la time just went by macam tu ja..macam harini la..dari semalam dah plan k pagi masak, then nak turun pi tengok mail and check kereta...then masak lunch..then kena tengok drama waktu lunch sebab malam nak tengok gegar vaganza...at the same time nak update blog..so now I've done and currently updating my blog...lepas publish post ni...I have no idea what else to do...maybe nak pi perangat lauk tadi and nasi for dinner la kot...aaa nak buat apa ni...esok dah kerja balik HAHAHAHAH...kacau my family members la muahahaha ready for another group vid call guys~ hehehe

company for the weekend~

 Yeah peak season is here~ things gonna get messy soon...but let's not talk about work today...I had enough for the past few days handling client that doesn't want to revert back to us in time...going through feedback session that didn't really turn out well for me...but all in all, I'm still surviving guys~! Alhamdulillah despite all the story/rumors that some of us has resigned and etc. I'm here still holding on!... so yeah the purpose of making this post is to share about a special company that came to my house yesterday~ ma bro...so Alang decides to stop by my house before going to his since he'll start a new semester soon...but thanks to Covid they might not be having a F2F class anytime soon... so Mama kinda instructed him to go straight back to Kedah without stopping by his house...well or he can just stay here for days ^^...hahahha the funny thing is that, yesterday my work has ended before he arrived but right before he told me that he is at the lobby, my senior asked me to help him with his work... so waiting for him to explain to me on what to do, Alang end up waiting for quite some times in the car. But right after he explain to me what to do...I closed my laptop and prepare dinner..while eating we watch movie and then have a light chat before I opened my laptop to work again...I ended up sleeping at 3 am while Alang...he's fast in dream land at around 12 am...today our first meal is popiah and karipap hahahha... for lunch we will think of it afterward haahhaa for now we will enjoy playing and watching movie first... so bye~~

sorry la berlemoih baru tutup laptop

get ready to go out

mama kirim barang sampai penuh peti

jamu my home made popiah hihi

bertemankan homemade karipap mama

ni plak lunch sadis

dinner buat proper skit..masak lomak and reheat ayam masak merah hehe

next breakfast

lunch + dinner sambil layan movie 

wow...that is a long week~

I can't put down this book titled "Arfa's Adventure"... every pages of the book give me new view of life... this week has been superrr long for me...I don't know even know what actually happen...but one thing I'm sure of, I am so damn tired hahaha... so major events that happened during the week can be split into good and bad...so let's start with bad first... so last Thursday as I mentioned, I had to go to the office...but unlike last week..this week I went a bit late, and compared to last week the traffic is a bit heavy...so to get straight to the point...I had a small accident...which didn't affect much on me but the other party's car does scratch at the front bumper area...and due to my car being sturdy than I thought it will be... the other party wanted me to pay for the bill... after discussing with Abah, we decided to just lodge the police report since at the end of the day I may need to pay something...so when I reach office, everyone kinda worried about me but once they know that I'm fine, they seriously get straight to work...so that morning we did have a small meeting...but due to the accident instead of focusing on my work...I had to deal with the other party to make the police report...so 1 hour or so before lunch break I excuse myself to go to the police station...and yeah the annoying thing is throughout the day...there are always something that happen on the road that affect the way I drive...let's just say that day I feel like I'm taking JPJ test again... although at the end police conclude that I'm at fault but let us take that as another life lesson...So yeah~mark 3 September 2020 is the day Arfareena received her first fine.. now let's move on to the good thing...honestly, I don't know whether this can be considered as good news or not...but to be a positive person, I'll take it as a good news for now...last Wednesday, Wan Ling my A2, said that she has something to tell me...so we had a call..and during the call she said that she mentioned my name to our manager, Casandra as a suggestion for recurring staff...so recurring staff meaning that I will be selected to be in Ambank engagement again after this...I had a talk with my counsellor way before I joined this engagement...and one of the thing that she told me was, to be recurred in one of the big client in EY shows how good you are in your work...cause these big clients, they can be picky about who their auditor are...and we have a reputation to hold on too...so unless you did an excellent job you might not be selected as a recurring staff... so here is where I don't understand whether it is a good news or not...cause first of all when she offered me that, I haven't properly started doing anything at all apart from, yeah like I mentioned above, calling client and doing the same thing again and again...I did ask her, are you sure that I am able to perform my work well?... are you sure in picking me as the recurring staff is a good thing? she said everything can be teach and learn...so if I'm willing than she will inform our manager about it...she also mentioned that not everyone actually willing to stay...to be real honest...it is tough, there are a lot of things I don't actually understand how it works...but at the same time I can't deny the fact that having this opportunity can help boost my reputation and at the same time teach me a lot about auditing... maybe doing something I've done before will also helps in improving my confidence level and be more resolute in making a decision in the future... I cried actually that night...cause I don't know whether this is a blessing or a challenge...but what makes me agree to the offer is because, opportunity like this didn't come to you often...and I keep saying this, everything that happened...every path that is set in front of me has their own reason, has their own objectives and their own ending...so let's hope that I can continue giving my best to the team...that's all hahaha...I need to turn my laptop on again tonight to complete a web learning...so for now, I want to rest hahahahah...chau~

experience change you~

 It's interesting that no matter how we hate adventure, it always come and give you a whole lots of experience... and yes that experience will change you... but either for better or for worse, it is all for you to define... there may be experiences that help you to see how cruel life can be, but again there are experiences that shows you how magnificent life is, by never running out of colors to help you paint a picture in your journey... I always mentioned this principle that Abah taught me, take one step at a time... it is easy to understand cause by taking one step at a time you can see things more clearly and at the same time, you able to control your pace... but as I grow older, I find another meaning to this phrase... by taking a step at a time, it makes you value all the steps you have taken, to be where you are... cause every step you take is taken after considering all the consequences and possibilities to happen...of course you may have taken a wrong step once throughout your journey, but imagine if you didn't take those steps...will you reach where you are now?... and of course there are also situations where we wonder, should we be where we are now, is this the place we are aiming to when we took our first step?... thus, there are doubts in life that act as shadows and haunts when our guide light runs out of batteries haha... let me share a quote from "Dream High"..."all these 'if and 'what if'... if you keep going backwards like that, none of us should have ever been born"...it's simple, stop questioning when did you take the wrong step, instead seek for a step that can lead you to where you are going to... every one of us have their own goal/aim in life... and sometimes these aims changes as we move closer to it...so do we need to start from the starting line again just because we have a different goal now?...no! why?...cause you won't change your goal at the first place if you didn't go through all those steps...I am facing this problem called "fear of the unknown"...but I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one having this issue...but I'm trying my best to deal with it, and of course by taking a step at a time...another quote, this time from "Just between lovers(Rain or Shine)"...this is a conversation between a hard headed halmeoni(grandma) and a hot headed boy..."Living is a repetition of regrets and failures","Then what's the point of living?","It's to make even better regrets and mistakes, so don't be a scaredy-cat"...you might not get the message by reading it in a glance so let me share another quote from "Radio Romance"... "The post-it(memo pad) was a failed product while trying to make a strong adhesives. A failure that became a hit. Keep jumping into things that are failures so you can turn the failures into success"...get it? sometimes having regrets and mistakes aren't that bad...as I said earlier, those are all experiences that help you to create a lifetime journey for yourself... k I think let's stop sharing anymore quotes from dramas hahaha... but seriously, these are one of the reasons why I like watching such dramas, of course apart from the visuals and the cinematography, these drama can actually teach you a lot about life in general... that's why I don't understand people that judges such dramas without even watching them...or people who watch out of following the trend...at the end of the day they didn't gain anything from it... I'm not saying only kdrama has this elements... scripts that teach us about life,love,career can be found in most drama shown in TV...no matter what language it use...plot can be cliche in some drama...not just that, sometime they are super cringy to watch...but putting those things aside, a great scripts truly differentiate a quality drama from others... hahaha...why Arfa suddenly giving these random lectures today hahahah...I don't know, I just feel like each day, I learn something new without realising it... I hope that I can continue taking steps that guide me to where I want to be, and I hope all these lessons learnt and experiences gained help me in becoming a person that I want to be...hehehe...Hwaiting Nur Arfareena Arman!!!

chilly night

 I'm trying a new spot to clear my mind... I think staying in bed, staring at my TV can't help to clear my mind that well anymore... so today I decided to open the balcony door and just stretch my "long" legs at the balcony while breathing in the "fresh" air, at the same time admiring the "view"... yeah so 1 week has passed since my 2nd engagement started... thank God I didn't go through the same breakdown phase, but I still feel weak every morning... I still wake up rushing to the toilet cause I felt nauseous and etc... but I still can cope with everything that happened.. well at least for now... maybe because everyone has been helpful to me...so it does reduce the burden to settle everything on my own.. I remember on the very first day of the engagement, I communicate with an A2 who is directly above me... apparently, he is on break but without knowing me before or even chat with me prior to this engagement... he sent something that makes me cry hahahha... it sounded something like this," take it easy, don't be too stress trying to figure out everything on your own"... that seriously help me a lot... especially after all the seniors mentioning how being engaged with one of the biggest client will make you lose your sanity real quick...cause everything is super strict and rigid... and the client themselves can be super nasty to deal with...the pressure to face the due date is not a joke... well to be honest, looking at the time schedule given, it is not a joke at all... but yeah as I said, so far everyone has been kind enough to help the slow me... so hopefully we can keep this pace for a long time... well at least enough to make sure I can deliver my work without delaying others works... currently, my work involve dealing with client, conduct an interview, call for sample selection... clarifying my understanding on their processes... making sure whether any changes can lead to any new impact to their control or not... and ALHAMDULLILAH... so far all the clients I have to deal with, well aren't friendly, but surely not nasty... maybe they sort of know that I am young and new...so they treat me like a sister/daughter instead..I'm not sure whether it is a good thing or not cause, yeah obviously I need to keep being professional...but I don't know if my professionalism is clearly shown or not... but one thing I learnt from my dad, just be nice to everyone especially your client, cause you never know when this connection will come in handy... ya ya it is like the philosophy friend with benefit... but that's what life is all about right... anyway, starting next week, every Thursday I have to go to the office...hopefully everything will go on smoothly, there is still a lot to learn... hope being able to meet my team next week can help me to at least feel like I belong somewhere... enough with this boring topic... hmmm since I don't know what else to share... I'm ending this awkward and meaningless post here haha... so again goodluck Arfareena, hope you have a happy and cheerful life... remember all hard work will be paid off... believe in His planning, Insyallah success is waiting for you.. just be patient... Hwaiting!!

 yup this post has no title...cause this is a continuation of previous post... another appreciation post to Hazirah si Setan Kecik!!... she told me last week that there will be a surprise waiting for me this weekend... and it turns out that she contacted Mama asking for my address to send me a gift... a cute brownie, with 4 different toppings to be exact hahahaha.. yesterday noon, I received a call from the delivery man asking me to go to the lobby to fetch the brownies... being super excited I send her the pic of the brownies and even made a vid of it hahaha... but the main reason I am making this post is not because of the present... but it is because of the reason behind the present...she said that she decided to send me the present because I told her about how I had a breakdown for the past few weeks... she said hopefully the present can at least help to cheer me up... I may joke around during the chat with her...but only God knows how touched I am for her action... how grateful I am to have you as a friend... It doesn't mean that I didn't appreciate the rest of my friends who send me their wishes and blessings but.... it's just the fact that she is one of a few that is aware of my current updates...one that take notice of my emotion/mood does make a difference... what else can I ask for from a friend... I am honestly scared to wish that we can keep this friendship going...cause throughout my life, I feel like friendship is like something luxurious for me... It is rarely available for me, but once I have it I treasure it well...but like most luxury item, it is not for everyone to own... I went through quite a number of different definition of friend in my life... and I am aware that I am not the only one having this kind of thought... which somehow helps me to grow up with the mindset of a lone ranger... but having these type of people around people like me... brings a different spark in life, that is something I can hardly describe in words... What can I say now is, Thank you! Thank you for putting up with my randomness... thank you for helping me to be who I am today, every one of you does shape me to be ME in a way or so... thank you for considering me as one of your friend, at least once in your life... Hazirah, aku doakan kau success in both life and hereafter... keep trying your luck cause insyallah setiap usaha tu ada hasilnya... setiap kejadian ada hikmahNya... never give up... Chaiyok! Hwaiting!... aku harap friendship ni boleh go on until kita tua... walaupun kau akan tua awal dari aku tapi by then aku harap kau tak decide nak putuskan this relay la hehehe... so far the longest friendship I had is with Jeng Jeng hahaha.. around 15 years bai~! but yeah... hope I can continue counting these friendship meter with the rest yang considered me as friend jugak... so finally, to everyone that has once walk into my life... I'm Sorry and Thank You~ Peace.

Thank you weyh

Sumpah sedap.. choc tak manis sngat, caramel masin2, strawberry tak masam..Noice